Current mood:	Irritated, Annoyed, Confused
Current music:	"The Trouble With Love Is" by Kelly Clarkson

Confused and not desired!
Lets see....


Well I got back from my grandma's yesterday (Sunday) around 3pm. I called Puma and he said that he would hang out with me after he did a few things, but he ended up falling asleep, I mean I can't blame him because he was up over 24 hours so, he slep for like 4 hours or so, then called me and he came over, he stayed until 11pm, and he left. After that I just sat in my room ate a little, then just turn my music on and found a few c.d.'s with really good songs on them so I started to sing to them and be cool in my own little world! It was fun. The only thing is I was so Horny! Gross to some of you reading I know but I don't care I was, I mean I got a little frisky with Puma, and ended up cumming, but for some reason after he left I just got more horny, so yeah I ended up masterbating two more times, in like less then 6 hours I cummed, 3 times. Wow that was a lot for me, I mostly jsut go once and then I am set for a while.....Hmm.....

NOTE: As you can obviously tell I am not ashamed of what I do, because if you are ashamed of something you did, then you shouldn't of done it. Also I am not afraid to say what I did. If you didn't want to know about it then you shouldn't be ready my blogs/journal entries. These have what I do during the day/ what I think. If you don't like it, don't complain to me, just don't read. Thanks...

So yeah.....I didn't go to bed until around 4am I believe, how sad I know...I woke up around 1pm I think, not sure on that one either. Then I watched a little t.v. there was really nothing on, so I turned on my music, started to sing again, then turned it down and called Puma. He didn't pick up, but then he called me around 3:15pm or so. He came by to tell me he missed, me and hi. I thought it was really sweet. In a way I just hope I don't fall for him. I mean it would be good, because I can actually picture us being something, more then just a short term thing (if we ever went out), but I don't want to go through the same heart-ache I did with Sam. That seriously can ruin a person if it constently happens. I just don't know...I would like to go out with Puma, but he has some things he needs to figure out, then we can. I know he likes me a lot and that is great, but I don't want to be just friends with benfits. I mean we are like boyfriends, with out the title! I just don't know I am very confused.

I also like Etienne, but I do not know if things would work out. For a couple of reason...

-We both don't drive, well he does, but he doesn't have his lisence yet.
-He Cheats (Or as done in the past and admitted that he doesn't know if he would say "no" if some tried to do things)
-He is really busy, it would be hard to fit me in his schedule.

I just don't know. Etienne is really good person to talk to, and to really have one of those deep conversations, and to relate to.

Puma, is a good person to have a good time with, and some what good to talk to.

I can't ask any of my friends to help me deside who I should be with. No of them know both of them. I have been trying to pick this whole time by myself. It really does suck. I think I might be leaning more towards Puma.

Hmm....Only time will tell...

So yeah....tonight I don't think I am doing anything, I might see if Puma wants to spend the night but I doubt he can for a few reason. I will still ask, he probably will come over though later. So that will still be good.

Well this is a long entry I guess. If you minused all the spaces, maybe not. Oh well....I guess I will go....Talk to you people later....


Josh!